Heart's Deception

by Evernoir

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1.	Foreword 00:21	lyrics	buy track
This album contains concept thematics of suicide. It choreographs how depression can manipulate your life and how alluring suicide can seem as a way to escape the pain. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide, please find help. Reach out to a trusted loved one or call 1-800-SUICIDE. And always remember: you are worth fighting for.
2.	Suicide Hotline 03:52	lyrics	buy track
All this innocence you stole from me Taking me, making your pawn Well stupidly, I find this sadness endearing Tell me is that so wrong I never knew that sorrow could be so addicting Baby give me more of your drug My heart is reaching into shadows I am dancing with my demons Whoa, you’ve got me believing there’s a sweetness in suicide Take a fool, make me a tool Poison me like a morphine drip Steady and so enticing Who cares if it’s a bad trip I never knew that sorrow could be so addicting Baby give me more of your drug My heart is reaching into shadows I am dancing with my demons Whoa, you’ve got me believing there’s a sweetness in suicide This melancholy is so numbing Darkness from the inside out This black bird knows no song Hostage and proselytized I never knew that sorrow could be so addicting Baby give me more of your drug My heart is reaching into shadows I am dancing with my demons Whoa, you’ve got me believing there’s a sweetness in suicide Suicide Oh this bittersweet taste Someone save me from this cage
3.	Welcome Back to the Truth 03:23	lyrics	buy track
Hollow, silent snow My hand stretched toward nothing In a place I barely know This visceral feeling has defined me now I am lost; how did you find me I don’t belong in this world You are the only reason I draw breath You’re the very core of who I am And I can’t let go now I feel you in my pulse You are vitality Danger walks the line In the shadow of a girl that once was Who I barely knew It’s irrevocable, this choice I’ve made Let the rain fall down And wash the pain away You are the only reason I draw breath You’re the very core of who I am And I can’t let go now I feel you in my pulse You are vitality Oh, be still my beating heart I’ll go the distance- tell me where to start I’ll show all the things you mean to me Now that I’m free You are the only reason I draw breath You’re the very core of who I am And I can’t let go now I feel you in my pulse You are vitality
4.	Interlude I 00:52	lyrics	buy track
At the End of the World, Avei awaited his arrival with bated breath. All she was and all she could be resided in the hands of the man she loved. Since he saved her life, she owed him everything, right At the End of the World, he watched as she turned to greet his arrival. A bright smile turned into a grimace as he thrust the end of a blunt weapon into her stomach. This was the cost of following her heart instead of his orders. Since he took her life, he would owe her everything.
5.	Superior Agony 02:58	lyrics	buy track
I slaved for you Like a puppet I danced for you Blind behind these vacant eyes I sat and watched you feed me lies Only now could I see you for what you are It’s too late, my time is gone I wished it all away too soon To be with you You buried my heart Hidden in a sarcophagus The stone decrepit and falling apart Was it that insignificant Was my love only a door And nothing more I looked into your deception and saw what I thought to be truth My story’s told a thousand times A shattered soul used and abused Reality trembles as you show yourself I only wanted a happy ending too A happy ending too Only now could I see you for what you are It’s too late, my time is gone I wished it all away too soon To be with you
6.	Interlude II 00:56	lyrics	buy track
She held together her broken body and gasped for breath before the foreign metal was torn from her. Screams pierced the air as darkness ate at her consciousness. Hot tears fell upon her face, a mere dream in the numb and engulfing cold. Avei’s only friend had found her, and held her closely as though to capture her within himself and keep her forever. As she journeyed where he could not follow, he unwillingly embraced the sense of loss, his vision blurring the small pools of blood scattered like bittersweet roses on the ground.
7.	Bittersweet Roses 03:29	lyrics	buy track
I don’t know if you knew But I owe it all to you My liberation The fight for a cause There you were, smiling at me The wind in your tresses So peacefully I cannot make it fade Your scream piercing Like winter’s blade Your bittersweet roses Stained my memory What a fool was I Taking for granted The ambiguous lie That I stood alone There you were, smiling at me The wind in your tresses So peacefully I cannot make it fade Your scream piercing Like winter’s blade Your bittersweet roses Stained my memory How can I erase this? The nightmares follow everywhere Your eyes follow everywhere Your blood Like bittersweet roses Petals on the ground Your memory Like bittersweet roses
8.	Interlude III 00:47	lyrics	buy track
Like a hushed inhale, life entered her shell of a body. Cold chills crept across her skin as though she was thawing ice. Her eyes fluttered open, and she lay there, questioning existence and all that remained. Avei felt empty- void of all feeling and motive. Then, as a single heartbeat pulsed in her chest for the first time postmortem, she felt zealous to find the man that did this to her. There was a new righteous cause for revenge, fueled forward by an encompassing surge of a new emotion: pure and unadulterated hatred.
9.	Silver Phoenix 02:20	lyrics	buy track
Knock me down Kick me 'round Kill my spirit, make me burn You seek to destroy This new flame I employ Watch me rise Glorious fire from the ashes I fell Watch me rise Brace yourself for the triumphant yell This fight isn't over Like a brilliant Phoenix I will rise Like a lion You have a thunder roar Lumbering around Seeking who you may devour We stand to fight Oh, just try to take this light Watch me rise Glorious fire from the ashes I fell Watch me rise Brace yourself for the triumphant yell This fight isn't over Like a brilliant Phoenix I will rise Ashes to ashes, dust to dust We all fall down Watch me rise Rise I will rise to conquer This darkness underneath it all Rise
10.	Sadistic Heartbreaker 03:06	lyrics	buy track
Chains can’t hold me, baby Oh I’m a circus, are you ready This world belongs to the twisted and weird Come to the dark side, we’re all cool here I’m a little bit twisted in my head Can’t get over what they said Whoa, twisted in the head Just be careful where you tread They say I’m psycho What a freakshow Yeah I’m a maniac I don’t give a care Make me up, break me down I’ve been worse, I swear Like a moth to a flame Darling, I’m addicted to pain I’m a little bit twisted in my head Can’t get over what they said Whoa, twisted in the head Just be careful where you tread They say I’m psycho What a freakshow Twisted, t-t-t-twisted. T-t-t-twisted, twisted in my head Twisted, t-t-t-twisted. T-t-t-twisted, twisted in my head I’m a little bit twisted in my head Can’t get over what they said Whoa, twisted in the head Just be careful where you tread They say I’m psycho What a freakshow Oh I’m a psycho We’re all psycho What a freakshow
11.	Slithery lil Snake 02:44	lyrics	buy track
There's a clock in my head that's like a ticking time bomb All it takes to make it go is you smiling on Like there's no wrong in your careless philosophy You've never committed sins in your life- you're free I guess it's good to see you're not the perfection I thought you were I guess it's time to move on, face the facts; you're not only strong I'm wasted from your poison I'm holding my breath for good To preserve myself from your toxic kiss Viper There's a song in my heart about a woman and a man Who sorted out all of their differences and then Settled down and lived happily on and on I have the pen and the paper, but oh my Where is the muse I guess that could have been us if fairytales did come true But I know I just can't write about a heartless fiend like you I'm wasted from your poison I'm holding my breath for good To preserve myself from your toxic kiss Viper
12.	The Rats of Hamelin 04:05	lyrics	buy track
This jail that you’ve locked on me Holds steady, it’s quite the cage I’m branded like a sheep When will you leave me be (My little dove, my puppet Do you think you can leave I pull the strings in this sideshow You only dance for me) I danced, I sang, I pleaded (I gave you all that you needed) You were an angel of demise (I was your angel in disguise) Pied piper, won’t you play your song A little longer Because the pleasure is so strong And though it’s wrong, I just can’t control myself These shackles lock down Baby, still (Because you want me still) Right You, the drug that I’m wasting on So hard coded in my veins I deserve all that is coming to me I chose this end (You know I love you, don’t you No one can love you like I do) With this shaded tale we’ve spun, Who will have me (you) now Pied piper, won’t you play your song A little longer Because the pleasure is so strong And though it’s wrong, I just can’t control myself These shackles lock down Baby, still (Because you want me still) Right All I had and all I was (I knew you best) Torn apart, was it all wasted On this superior agony That you’ve put me through I can’t trust you (Of coping with your ignorance It’s tiresome at best) Pied piper, won’t you play your song A little longer Because the pleasure is so strong And though it’s wrong, I just can’t control myself These shackles lock down Baby, still (Because you want me still) How can I want you still? (You will always want me) Right
13.	Interlude IV 00:37	lyrics	buy track
Slave to a masterful manipulator, Avei wrestled with the strings her abuser pulled on her. This existence was putrid, so laced with his hold over her mind. She could not understand this influence he had over her. She had made his world her own; and though she tried to break free, everywhere she looked was a constant reminder of him. She wondered if he was right- no one would have her now. In a desperate plea, she turned to the shadowed faces of the lovers of this beast. And with a twisted grin, they mocked the dove in their midst.
14.	Excuse Me While I Play the Bard 02:53	lyrics	buy track
Opinionated, overrated It's the same story on repeat I don't remember pulling the string Chatty Kathy, your tale is boring We are tired of hearing the same old thing Can you see my eyes Rolling to the back of my head Read between the lines I don't give a flyin’ Don’t give a flyin’ Huh Raise your voice, just elevate it It won't make a single difference We tune our ears from the monotonous roar You think you can buy your way in Do I look like a five dollar whore Can you see my eyes Rolling to the back of my head Read between the lines I don't give a flyin’ Don’t give a flyin’ Huh You may think you’re a queen And your fake goes unseen I know better You don't love me honey You don't know me You don't own me Can you see my eyes Rolling to the back of my head Read between the lines I don't give a flyin’ Don't give a flying’ (You’re nothing)
15.	Have You Any Wool 03:59	lyrics	buy track
Who am I Am I still here I look in the mirror To see what they see Nothing’s there Invisible, why was I born You don’t make mistakes but sometimes I wonder Black sheep Your wool is different, how they stare Black sheep You’re so valuable, but they don’t care You want to fit in But your mortal sin- you never will Black sheep Was I wrong Have I fallen I try so hard To be what they will see Notice me Why can’t I be like you Black sheep Your wool is different, how they stare Black sheep You’re so valuable, but they don’t care You want to fit in But your mortal sin- you never will Black sheep The shadows of my existence Only arbitrate my persistence There’s worth in there I know I know Black sheep Your wool is different, how they stare Black sheep You’re so valuable, but they don’t care You want to fit in But your mortal sin- you never will Black sheep
16.	Welcome Back to the Darkness 04:32	lyrics	buy track
To think I served you Now knowing what you are The monster behind the mask of beguile Your poison, its taste at first so sweet Now vile acid Only you can turn my heart into ash and coal Your beauty hides the morbid truth of you I must break these chains Flee your intoxicating bane I can see you for the creature you are Bête noire, you can’t have me If I’d seen it sooner This ruse that enticed me All the time I wasted standing in the bitter cold Though I’ve seen the light, you refuse to give up the fight Just let me go Only you can turn my heart into ash and coal Your beauty hides the morbid truth of you I must break these chains Flee your intoxicating bane I can see you for the creature you are Bête noire, you can’t have me Please liberate me So much he can’t give me Please, mon cher ami Speak louder Scream louder Only you can turn my heart into ash and coal Your beauty hides the morbid truth of you I must break these chains Flee your intoxicating bane I can see you for the creature you are Bête noire, you can’t have me You can’t have me You can’t have me